I brought the wrong car!

So i had one of those moments just now where i pull up to the line on GT5 against a great friend who has brought his gaudy 08 Ford Mustang, giant wing and all, and all i could think was "Haha, you've got to be joking". You see i was in a mid 80's Lancia, just an amazing little car i've built. The green light went, and for the first time tonight he pulled away and that was that, i didnt even have a chance save for his reckless driving that nearly left him in the sand multiple times.

Got me thinking how many times i've gone into something so sure, so completely confident. Something the few of you who are still followers know is something that has gotten me into hot water before. I realized that while my intentions were noble at times, the end didnt always justify the means i guess. As i come to another point in my life where im making big choices that will assuredly change my life in great ways its tough to really stop and slow myself down. Im so used to this ideal in my head that says if i slow down that i'll become boring, complacent and old. Thats not really true tho is it? I mean, i can be fun, passionate, spontaneous and enjoy life all the same, maybe more even, if i slow down some of the bigger things and really take the time to make them good well rounded choices.

I guess the fear has always been that what if tomorrow never comes? We never know which day will be our last as it were. I was always the worried kid. I dont want to be him anymore, i want to enjoy life. At least as much as is sensible and in good form. Im really excited for the future, and honestly a bit scared, its kinda daunting.

But everything is an opportunity right? For good or for bad, every situation that comes our way is just an opportunity to succeed. Sometimes we will all fail but as a good friend mentioned to me indirectly the other day "You learn alot more from losing than you will from success." I had an opportunity in that race earlier, and I did happen to take advantage of it. While i didnt win, i did keep pressure on my friend for the entire race, i didnt make a mistake during the race. Maybe just one before it. Next time i'll bring a Lancia with a supercharger. ;-)

Thanks to those who still follow. Working on improving that. And the quality and frequency of these posts.